Day 031

She may smoke, wear lingerie on stage, and swear like a trucker. But I don't care. She's a beautiful individual with a mind of her own. And with that, she has my respect.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

ps. Enjoy the Grammy's!

Day 030

I'm really startig to fall for my boyfriend, and I mean fall hard. It's only been three months, but he's just so cute, and sweet, and funny, and smart. He understands me, and he treats me like the princess he thinks I am. I like him. A lot. But I don't love him yet. I'm just not ready for that step. I think I'm just scared of getting hurt, even though I know he wouldn't do that.

He's amazing though, really amazing.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 029

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, oh boy. This gets me every time...

You see, I used to have this major obsession with CSI Miami. I watched it all the time. And by 'all the time', I mean I never missed an episode. And by 'never missed an episode', I mean I've seen every episode at least once, if not more. So when I saw this, I almost pee'd my pants because it's kinda-sorta something Horatio would say (kinda-sorta being the key words in this sentance).

Anywho, today's blog was just for shits n' giggles.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 027

Why'd he have to leave?! I loved him. His last episode made me cry.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The (disappointed) Girl In Her Own World

Day 026

Today, I was going through http://www.geekologie.com and found these pictures of fallen Disney Princesses.

As I kept looking through the pictures, I was astounded by Dina Goldstein's work.

"As a yound girl growing up abroad, I was not exposed to Fairytales. These new discoveries lead to my fascination with the origins of Fairytales. I explored the original brothers Grimm stories and found that they have very dark and sometimes guresome aspects, many of which were changed by Disney...

...I began to imagine Disney's perfect Princesses justaposed with real issues that were affecting women around me, such as illness, addiction and self-image issues." Goldstein says of her inspiration.

"With limited funds I began to assemble my series, incorporating many important details in each image. Cinderella sits in a dive bar on Vancouver's infamous Hastings Street. Snow White is trapped in a domestic nightmare, surrounded my unkempt children with a lazy, out of work prince in the background...

...Rapunzel deals with Cancer in a hospital room, sitting beside her long blonde wig. An overweight Red Riding Hood is on her way to grandma's, carting fast food in her basket."

In my opinion, Disney Princesses are so perfect, so surreal. The imperfections they portray in the pictures give them another dimension, different from what we see in the movies. It makes them real.

It shows me that no matter how perfect something may be, there will always be flaws. Especially in the society we live in; it may look perfect, but if you really look, not just with your eyes but with your heart as well, you'll see what's really going on. Poverty. Homelessness. Addiction. It's all there.

Much Love & God Bless,
- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 024

Since there was absolutely nothing on TV today, the boyfriend made me watch the hockey game. I'm not the sporty kind of girl, which made me think... I don't have any favourite sports teams. Sure, I like the Pittsburgh Penguins, but that's only because Sidney Crosby is on the team. But other than that, there's nothing. What are your favourite sports teams? Or are you like me and not really into sports?

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 021

I was talking with my friends the other day, and they kept telling me how mean I was. The more they talked about it, the worse I felt. I guess I never realized how rude I was until my friends told me. I always thought I was just being brutally honest.
If I've ever offended you or hurt you in any way, I'm sorry.
The truth is, I never really learned how to be nice. As a young child, I wasn't surrounded by very many nice people. My parents were constantly arguing. One brother always got in trouble at school (in my later years). The other was different. We weren't the normal family everyone expected us to be. I didn't know what normal was.
From now on, I'm going to think about what I say, before I say it. I'm going to compliment people, and smile more often. This is going to be hard, but I'm going to do it. I might scare a few people with my niceness, since they won't be used to it. But hey, 2010 is The Year Of No Fear. Might as well embrace it...
"It is not true that nice guys finish last. Nice guys are winners before the game even starts. "
- Addison Walker
Much Love & God Bless,
- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 020

My first exam is tomorrow. When I took a break from studying, I went on Twitter. These are the responses I got. Both of which made me extremely happy. Now, I can go and write my exam with a smile on my face.

:)

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 019

The boyfriend looked really sad today, but he wouldn't tell me why. He has a roller coaster of emotions where he's really happy, then he has an argument with with parents. He's sad for a day or two, then he's happy for the next week. This has been going on for a while now.

Next time it happens, I'm gonna play the glad game with him.

So what makes me glad you ask?

Chocolate cupcakes with vanilla iceing. High-fives. Hugs. Smiles from strangers. My dog. Cuddling with my boyfriend. This funny face my friend makes. Getting tickled. Daydreaming. Watching MadTV on Youtube. Feeding the ducks. Food. Love.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 018

I was talking to one of my ex-boyfriends today, and I kept on thinking about how close we were when we were dating. When he dumped me, we agreed to remain friends. But unfortunately, that hasn't been working out so well. He barely talks to me anymore. Even though I have a new boyfriend whom I care about very much, I still miss talking to my ex.

I told him everything there was to know about me. He was there when I needed him the most. But where is he now?

To my favourite teacher, told me never give up. To my seventh grade crush, who I thought I really loved. To the girls I miss, and the guy I kissed. Where are you now? To my ex-best friends, don't know how we grew apart. To my favorite bands, and sing-a-longs in my car. To the face I see in my memories. Where are you now? Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you. You showed me how, how to live like I do. If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am. To my first boyfriend, I thought for sure was the one. To my last boyfriend, sorry that I screwed it up. To the ones I loved, but didn't show it enough. Where are you now? Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you. You showed me how, how to live like I do. If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am. I know we'll never see those days again. And things will never be that way again. But that's just how it goes. People change but I know I won't forget you. To the ones who cared, and who were there from the start. To the love that left and took a piece of my heart. To the few who'd swear, 'I'd never go anywhere.' Where are you now? Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you. You showed me how, how to live like I do. If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am. If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am.

If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing. Where are you now?

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

ps. Song: Where Are You Now - Honor Society

pps. Check out Honor Society's websites; http://www.myspace.com/honorsociety, http://www.honorsocietymusic.com/, http://www.youtube.com/user/HonorSociety, http://twitter.com/honorsociety

Day 017

Sorry I haven't updated this weekend, I've been a little busy.

Friday night, my best friend came over after school because we were going to watch my boyfriend's hockey game (he's the goalie). We got there early so we could watch our friends play their game too. Once we got home, we watched a movie then went to bed, so I had no time to write then.

On Saturday, my bed broke after I sat on it. It was already somewhat broken before I sat on it, so my weight didn't cause it to fully break. My friend and I spent a good half hour trying to fix it, but it was no use. I am now sleeping on my matress on the floor. After she left, I got ready really quickly to go to my boyfriends house. I spent the rest of the day with him. I even tried his moms bean salad. I hate beans, and I hate salad. But my resolution this year was to scare myself silly and try new things. So, I ate it. by the time I got home, it was 10:00pm. I was extremely tired so I went to bed. That left me with another day of not blogging.

Anywho, back to the point of this post. While I was at my boyfriends house, we were cleaning out his binder and listening to music on his iPod. It then decided not to work, so I took out my iPhone to play some music. It was hard picking a song since we both like completely different tastes in music. There were giggles when he saw Hannah Montana and The Spice Girls, and confused faces when he saw Imogen Heap and Pixie Lott.

But all in all, I like my music. It's all over the place, from country to rock to pop. It describes who I am as a person, and it gives me an escape from what reality throws at me. What kind of music are you into? Favourite song(s)? Favourite artist(s)?

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

ps. I got a Twitter account, follow me at www.twitter.com/herownworld.

Day 014

Since 2010 is the Year Of No Fear, I've tried to do one thing a day that scares me. Unfortunately, there hasn't been anything scary to do. Which in turn makes me a little disappointed in myself. But then today, I got a call from my dad saying two things; he might've found a new home for my dog, and that I'll be meeting my aunt and her son (something happened a long time ago that caused her to lose contact with the family). To you, those things may seem like nothing. But to me, they're a little terrifying.

I really don't want to get rid of my dog, because she's one of my best friends. That is one of my greatest fears in life; losing the ones I care about most. But it's what's best for her, and I need to accept that.

And even though I like meeting new people, the fact that they're family intimidates me a little. I know my dad and I will love them no matter what, it'll just take us a little bit of time. Just think of how my aunt and cousin feel. It has to be a little nervewracking seeing your family for the first time in years.

Anywho, I promise that in the days/weeks/months to come, I'll frighten myself more and more each day.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 013

Today, I wrote a script about getting into an altercation with someone. It could be something you randomly thought of, or something based on a true story. Mine was about this one girl getting into a fight with her best friend because the best friend slept with the other girls ex-boyfriend (did that make sense?). It got me thinking; this is usually how girls resolve their problems with other girls.

Aren't we the ones who criticize boys for getting into fights all the time? Yeah, double standards suck.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 012

He makes me crazier every time I see him. It's a good kind of crazy though.

I love it when he wraps his arms around my waist, then tickles me until I can barely breathe.

I love it when he kisses me in between classes.

I love it when he holds my hand in the halls.

I love it when he makes fun of my little noodle arms in my big uniform sweater.

I love everything about him, even his imperfections.

They're what make me so crazy about him.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

ps. I wrote a short story. It's during the zombie apocalypse. Should I post it?

Day 011

Today while I was in religion, I found my nameplate on the floor. It was ripped, scribbled all over and crumpled. I worked extremely hard on it, like, you have no idea. It was basically me on a piece of paper. Of course, I had no idea who did it. My friend (insert female name here) told me she knew who did it.

The girl that did it liked my boyfriend before we were dating. I think she still likes him now and is jealous of me. I'm not trying to sound conceited or full of myself, but my best friend thinks the same thing too. She always tries to flirt with him in class, and it pisses me off.

But my view on it is that she needs to grow up. She's in Gr. 9 already, which leaves her no room for immaturity. If she really wants to go that far and ruin my work, she can go back to fifth grade. Seriously.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 010

Today was my first time watching Rent. Mind you, I missed the beginning and the end. But I must say, this is the craziest, saddest, happiest, most amazing movie ever made. If you've never heard of it or seen it, I highly recommend checking it out. Anywho, back to the point. When one of the main characters was dying in the hospital, I started feeling really emotional. But then I realized; everyone dies. I'm not trying to sound negative about life or anything, but it's true. Everyone dies in the end.

That's why I believe you should treat every moment of your life as if you were going to die. Live it to the fullest it can be. Have fun, be happy, don't be afraid to try new things. Laugh. Cry. Do it all. Make the best out of what you have.

You only live once.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 008

After I finished blogging last night, I watched the ending of Scooby-Doo on the Cartoon Network. When they unmasked the monster, it turned out to be the guy they never exected it to be (like always). When it ended, I turned the TV off and relaxed in bed. Then I thought, what would happen if they guy wasn't wearing a mask? How would it all work out? Thoughts?

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 007

Sorry about not updating in the past few days. I've been really busy studying for exams.

So far, I've only gotten half way through science. When I couldn't take the studying anymore, I watched the music video for Who I Am by Nick Jonas And the Administration. What a video. It's showing different types of people and who they truly are.

After viewing it, I was inspired to show you who I was. Metaphorically of course. I always get a little nervous when I tell people who I really am, because I'm afraid of being judged. But then again, who isn't?

Anywho, here I am...

3OH!3 is me. Jewellery is me. Wishing on dandelions is me. Football is me. Memories are me. Selena Gomez is me. Trust is me. Raindrops are me. Crying is me. The fresh smell of laundry is me. The Jonas Brothers are me. New life is me. Autumn is me. Family is me. Rainbows are me. Music is me. Miley Cyrus is me. The beach is me. Sunsets are me. Watching the sunset on a beach is me. Horses are me. Glasses are me. Fashion is me. Staring at the stars is me. Nature is me. Demi Lovato is me. Smiling is me. Starbucks is me. (L)ove is me. Facebook is me. Tattoos are me. Lip rings are me. Bellybutton rings are me. Dane Cook is me. MLIA is me. Lash Blast Luxe is me. TNA is me. Polaroids are me. Dreaming is me. Jesus is me. Best friends are me. Marilyn Monroe is me. Beanies are me. The iPone is me. Dancing in the rain is me. Wrapping Christmas presents is me. Taylor Swift is me. Collecting perfume bottles is me. Hugging is me. Twilight is me. New Moon is me. Eclipse is me. Breaking Dawn is me. Movies are me. Fairytales are me. Mermaids are me. Unicorns are me. Green tea is me. Pink is me. Talking is me. Art is me. Stress is me. Laughing is me. The Dr. Oz Show is me. And most importantly, I’m just, me.

All of those people, things, and ideas are what create me, build me into an individual. Who are you?

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

ps. NJATA's debut album drops February 2nd, 2010. Don't forget to pick up a copy!

pps. My dog is home. the family didn't want her, since she scared their youngest kid.

ppps. Is it wrong that I'm happy that their kid was scared?

Day 004

Whenever I'm having a bad day (like today for instance), something that helps me feel better is when I get a high five from one of my friends. When you high-five someone, you pass your good energy to them and vice-versa. So here's to you friends. If you're having a bad day, give my blog a high-five. Just be careful, you don't want to break your computer screen.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

ps. My dog left today.

Day 003

You know that feeling you get when one of your best friends moves away? Well that's exactly how I'm going to feel when we get rid of my dog. Dad would take her, but she can't stand his cats, and they feel the same about her. Mom can't keep her anymore because she does her "business" in the house (she wasn't trained as a puppy) and she doesn't want to train her now. She'll only "go" when we take her for walks, but not outside when she's on her leash. Plus, she hates kids, strangers, and other dogs. I unfortunataly, do not get a choice in whether or not we keep her. With my mom, it's her way or the highway. My dog is my baby, my best friend. She makes me smile every time I see her. I can talk to her, and know she's listening to me. I was finally happy, and now she has to leave. This may sound silly to some of you, but she's important to me. I don't know what I'm going to do without her.

Plus, we already have people waiting to "try her out," as I like to call it. If they like her and she likes them, it's a done deal. We give them the food, leash, harness and bed. Fuck.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The (very sad) Girl In Her Own World

:(

Day 002

People really need to learn to accept their bodies.

God made everyone a certain way, and you should appreciate it.

I understand it's embarassing when you're over-weight, or you don't replicate those air-brushed models in the magazines.

I have no need for weight-loss supplements or crazy crash-diets.

I've learned to love my body the way it is, and I'm only 14.

You should try it.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World

Day 001

The above statement my friends, is very true.

I tend to worry about every little detail of my life.

This also happens to be one of my biggest secrets.

The reason I'm telling you is because to most people, telling others their secrets terrifies them.

One of those people is me.

And I've promised myself to do one thing a day that scares me.

So, here it is, plain and simple.

My secret.

Much Love & God Bless,

- The Girl In Her Own World